Wednesday, May 13, 2009

Thoughts

I have been pondering. 

I hate the saying "Love the sinner, hate the sin." It's trite. And it doesn't adequately express the way Christ act. As God of the universe, he could declare sin. We must shun sin for ourselves, but when it comes to loving people we have to love them as what they are Children of God. Don't look of them as saints or sinners. Just look at them as people. 

Correction I had the two mixed up at first so it read love the sin. 

Monday, April 6, 2009

King Benjamin

So I have been a bit bad with my scripture study lately. Being home was great though and totally worth it. I missed my family a lot. And I am going to miss them a lot more than I thought I was going to. Granted, I knew I would miss them a lot I just didn't know it would be a lot. So I am sad about that but it will be okay.

I am reading King Benjamin's address. I really like the idea of serving others. I always have. I always want to help people. And I want to do it mostly because it is important to see others happy and to help others obtain the blessings that God has in store for them. For this reason, I love to serve. I also want to be a worthy servant of God who obeys Him like the dust of the earth. Only this way can I be the most effective servant.

Thoughts of Thailand and sleep.

Tuesday, March 31, 2009

Jacob 7- Omni

I liked these chapters. In Jacob 7, Jacob's confrontation with Sherem is awesome. I like how Jacob teaches us that all scripture testifies of a Redeemer, a True Lover, Jesus Christ. To profess to understand the scriptures but to deny the Christ shows a lack of knowledge. The Book of Mormon adds its testimony of Jesus Christ, revealing that all prophets have testified of the coming of a Messiah.

Enos' story is also very interesting. I like the idea that Enos prays mightily and receives a remission of his sins. But then he proceeds to pray for his people that they might have a knowledge of the Covenants of God. God covenants with him that they shall gain this knowledge eventually. That's even better. The fact that he was thinking about his brothers and sisters is a happiness.

I am searching for a scripture to put on my missionary plaque. So far I really like Matthew 25:40 (my all time favorite scripture) and a few others. Today I found a good possibility. It is Omni 1:26

"And now, my beloved brethren, I would that ye should come unto Christ, who is the HOly one of Israel, and partake of his slavation, and the power of his redemption. Yea, come unto him, and offer your whole souls as an offering unto him, and continue in fasting and prayeing, and endure to the end,; and as the Lord liveth ye will be saved."

I like the idea of giving our whole soul. Joseph Smith taught that the soul is the body and the spirit. So in a sense, we are asked to give our all to Christ. We are called upon to give Him the physical and the things that transcend the physical.

Monday, March 30, 2009

Pruning the Vineyard

I read Jacob 5 over two days. I love Jacob 5 but lately I haven't felt as strongly involved with it lately. It's probably due to the stress of the semester and everything. I like the analogy of the Lord pruning the vineyard and working on the trees but the good fruit would often not be produced despite the Lord's bests intentions.

I have felt very pruned this year. I have experienced some of the most trying experiences in my life. I came to BYU with naive expectations I suppose. I was a bit shocked when it wasn't exactly as peachy as I had hoped. I have met many friends, felt many sorrows, and experienced the most spiritual growth that I have ever seen in a year. My first semester I finished the Bible. My second semester I read the BOM. And I hope to finish the D and C before I leave for Thailand. I stirred up controversy as I explored my religious beliefs. I prayed. A lot. I tried to pray with greater intent. I tried to come to know Jesus, not just about Him. And I worked hard to do my best. Was I happy through all this pruning? Sometimes yes, sometimes no. Lately I have felt the no side of this pruning. I haven't been enjoying BYU for the past little bit and it was compounded lately as I realized that I have felt more and more left out in many aspects of my life. Don't worry everyone, BYU, like everything in life, has its ups and downs. I will most likely stay at BYU.

But then I remember perhaps the greatest lessons that I have learned this year. Christ's hand is always stretched out. He is the True Lover. The Great I am. The Eternal God. God is my Father. And the Spirit will not abandon me if I continue to try my hardest. The pruning and the burning, the nourishing and the learning comes through the Holy Spirit. God has taught me more about myself than I can express. God has taught me who I want to be, who I don't want to be, what I want my life as a Disciple of Christ to be like and the kind of future I want for myself. But most of all, I have learned to love myself. I have learned that only through loving myself can I love others.

And because of this, I have grown to love the Thai people already more than I can express. Though I may not speak their language (yet), I feel a love for them that I cannot express in words. I hope that I can share my message with love and with faith.

Lord I believe. Help thou my unbelief.

Thursday, March 26, 2009

2nd Nephi 30-33

I finished the book of 2nd Nephi today. I really rather enjoyed it. The Isaiah chapters are a little hard but I really like the final words of Nephi. Nephi calls for us to repent, be baptized and be reconciled unto God. We must press forward with a steadfast faith in Christ, having a perfect brightness of hope. I love that. To have a brightness of hope. What does that even mean? I think I am looking forward to understand what hope really means. I have heard it explained many ways but I wonder how it will apply in my life and what it will come to mean. I am anxious to share what I believe to be my hope in Christ with the people in Thailand. I try to press forward despite Book of Mormon tests and pains that I feel in my life. I pray to continue to be able to share this hope with the people of Thailand. I know I mention this every night, but I really am so excited to go to Thailand. I can't wait to go and serve the people. I want to be a humble servant of God and testify to them of Jesus Christ, the Son of the Living God.

Wednesday, March 25, 2009

2nd Nephi 29-30- A Bible, A Bible!

A Bible, A Bible, We Have got enough Bible! How many times have I heard this? Too many to count. Especially from some people who are less sympathetic to the Church's claim to new scriptures and continuing revelation. I feel that the Book of Mormon, another Testament of Jesus Christ, is not really changing anything that the Bible says, it merely clarifies and expounds upon new doctrines. A few notable ones include: the plan of salvation, the resurrection, the atonement, Jesus' teachings, the role of the spirit, etc. I feel that these will be key in the conversion process of the Thai people. I pray for understanding to be able to teach them that which they need to know.

Tuesday, March 24, 2009

The Book of Mormon 2nd Nephi 26-28

So I have been breaking Lent. But I am trying. I have been so busy and stressed out that it's almost impossible. I am praying for help. But I want to journal on my scripture experience better than I have been. And I have been doing well so far.

These chapters talked about how the Book of Mormon's primary purpose is to convince men that Jesus Christ is the Eternal God. I believe that this is the purpose of the Book of Mormon also. I can't wait to share the truthfulness of this marvelous theologically beautiful text to the Thai people. I can't wait until I can read the Book of Mormon in Thai and bear my testimony in Thai as I share my humble belief in the simplicity of many Gospel teachings. I cannot wait until I can testify to the people of Thailand of Christ's arm always being extended (end of chapter 28). To me, this is the most important thing I can share with a world that needs more peace, love and happiness and less judgment and anger.

I also like the idea of learning line upon line. I think this leaves room for changes. I like change. Our Church is based upon the idea of continuing revelation and change through the atonement of Christ. I like that idea a lot. I pray that I may be open to receive line upon line also.

Monday, March 23, 2009

Christ as Savior- 2nd Nephi 23-25

I really liked the analogy of Christ as the Savior who brought the Israelites across the sea and the one who offered healing from the fiery serpents. I think often we think of Christ as a very distant figure. He is a picture on the wall. Words in a book. Testimonies on Fast Sunday. Sunday School lessons. But Christ is much more than that. Christ is the Savior of the World. The Son of the Living God. As Chieko Okazaki we have to do more than come to know about Christ, we have to come to know Christ. We have to come to feel the atoning power that He offers, His love for mankind, and the power of his role as Savior is. I mention this in about every post here, but I can't wait to bear my testimony of Christ, the Son of the Living God, to the people of Thailand. I can't wait to say that I know that Christ died for my sins and your sins and everyone else's sins. Even if you don't believe in Him, He still suffered for your sins because His atonement is an infinite one. Infinite. Without end.

Sunday, March 22, 2009

Christ's Judgment 2nd Nephi 20-22

Christ judges perfectly. He does not judge with the eyes or the ears, but he judges through the heart and soul of men. Christ has charity. He can see everyone the way they really are, not just the way they seem. Christ inspires me to have more charity. Lately I have been reflecting on my attitudes as I have become increasingly stressed out this semester with my Spanish paper and all the other things that are on my mind. Am I trying to exhibit charity? Am I praying enough? Am I judging as Christ would have me judge? I am trying so hard and yet I feel so inadequate at times. At these times, I think I fail to remember that Christ's hand is not stretched out two hours a day excluding weekends and holidays, Christ's hand is always stretched out. He wants me to partake of the atonement and feel that exquisite joy.

Yes I know I am preachy, but the atonement is something so important to me. I have always had such a testimony of Christ. I know of His Divinity and Charity as I have come to see it throughout my life. I love Jesus Christ. I cannot wait to share this love with the people of Thailand. The work will be hard. The hours will be long. The days will be rough. But if I can share something that is so important to me and maybe touch someone for the better, even if they don't convert, I will be satisfied. I hope I can have the Spirit as I tell the Thais that Christ's hand is stretched out still.

Thursday, March 19, 2009

His Hand is Stretched Out Still 2 Nephi 17-19

I often like to ponder about the atonement and Christ's feelings about it. Obviously, it was a painful experience for Christ. He suffered for everything. I often feel that sometimes I am too unworthy or scared to come to Him for help. I once heard that the "Mormon Jesus" is for the strong. I disagree. The "Mormon" Jesus is for the people who are so tired. He's for the people who can't find the rays of sunshine in their lives. He's for the people who struggle with eating, mood and emotional disorders. He's for the people who struggle, languish and are about to give up. He's for everyone who has felt any kind of pain. He's there for us. He atoned for it all. We are scared and very weak. We need Jesus. We must come to know Him. We have to reach out for His hand when we languish. After all, His hand is stretched out still.

Wednesday, March 18, 2009

Cleanse Me O Lord- 2nd Nephi 16

I don't have much to say on the scriptures today. I couldn't really read that well. I was distracted. I am considering something that I never thought I would consider. I doubt it will actually happen and it will be definitely after Bangkok, so I don't need to think about it.

Anyway, I like the passage about Isaiah becoming pure before the Lord. I want that too. How can I obtain that? I think it is only through the Spirit that I can do this. God will bless me somehow, sometime, somewhere if I remain faithful. I know His Gospel to be True and I want to be a worthy spokesman for it. Help me O Lord. Cleanse Me.

Tuesday, March 17, 2009

Behind and Ahead- 2nd Nephi 14-16

I fell behind on this blog. I finished the BOM and loved it. I can't express that in words. It is far too holy to express.

But I want to write a few impressions about my reading for today. I love the idea of God raising an Ensign to the Nations. What is the ensign? In my opinion, this ensign reminds me a lot of what God tends to do with his people. Moses and the golden snake. Jesus Christ on the cross. And now a new ensign. This new ensign to me is the knowledge of a God who atoned for our sins in a way that is more personal than ever. It is the restored gospel of hope. Of love, joy, peace. I can't wait to share this news with the people of Thailand. To think of seeing their smiling faces as their culture becomes integrated with the Gospel of Jesus Christ brings tears to my eyes.

Wednesday, February 4, 2009

3rd Nephi 17-20

Third Nephi really is so great. Today the reading that stood out the most to me was the reading about Christ healing people "one by one." Or talking to His disciples "one by one."

I think often we have this image of Christ being a very foreboding being, an Eternal Judge who is out to make sure we see what we have done wrong. Christ is very much a judge in the end, but in the meantime, I think He's also someone who has the time to heal us individually. Christ doesn't heal collectively. He heals only those who offer up a broken heart and a contrite spirit. Each time we feel we mess up, which may be 100x a day, He stands ready to accept our sins and heals us from the bitter stains of sin. I know of this from personal experience. Often I make little mistakes that need repentance and I try to avoid making them. But if I do, I stop what I am doing. I think of what Jesus would have me do. And then I repent. The joy of the Atonement of God Himself doesn't come to people who place a facade of perfection over their sins. It comes to those who genuinely repent, seeing that they can't do it on their own. God promises those who forsake and confess their sins that He will remember them no more. We may remember them, but when we truly repent, we are clean again before God.

Christ is a healer. He stands ready to heal us, no matter what we do. And that's the best news of all.

Thursday, January 29, 2009

Christ's Visit- 7-16

These scriptures are so holy that I cannot begin to comment on them in adequate detail. I have been a bit behind on the reading due to my mission papers. Hope Brother Parrish will forgive that. I would, however, like to focus on the things that I learn from these scriptures.

1. Christ has other sheep- Christ has other sheep that are not those at Jerusalem. He discusses how He has come to visit His few sheep in the Americas, also mentioning other sheep elsewhere. I often ponder what this exactly means. I think Christ had sheep all over the place. I imagine His earthly ministry was actually quite extensive. (Personal Interpretation alert!) I would not be surprised if Christ visited places such as Africa, Asia, Europe, and the Isles of the Sea where some believers were assembled in His name. I could see Christ visiting these people who have records of His visit written. I would like to study Messiah beliefs in various cultures to see if they have any correlation to Jesus Christ. I imagine that many traditions of Christ have been lost throughout the years and I also imagine that He did not manifest Himself unto everyone. Christ is a very personal visitor. He likes small groups and intimate settings. I imagine He showed Himself to a few followers and they could have established Zion-like communities that could have failed eventually.

2. Christ remembers the Covenants of the Lord- Christ is the Lord who established the Covenants through His Father's instruction. He remembers the House of Israel and the Gentiles. He promises to establish His Covenants through His servants and to bring peace to His people.

3. Christ's atonement is real. He allowed the people to feel the wounds in His hands and in His side. I cannot wait until I can do that. Now I would like to talk about this.

I really know the atonement happened. I know because I have felt the cleansing power that it has brought into my life. I would like to testify of the power of the atonement and its events.

Christ met with His apostles before He died. He instituted the sacrament, in memory of His atonement and as a means by which true followers of Christ may be found worthy to stand before Him again. He then traveled to a garden where He, like the name Gethsemane implies, would be pressed for blood. Pressed for the sins of the world. Christ there suffered spiritual and physical pain beyond that which we can imagine. His Father sent Him an angel to bear Him up and provide comfort for Him. Christ then was betrayed by Judas Iscariot and eventually led to a death by Crucifixion. They crowned the King of the Universe with a crown of thorns, adorning Him in a purple robe. They stood by and mocked Him, denying His divinity. They called Him the King of the Jews. Little did they know, that He was more than that. He was their King. Their Savior. Their Redeemer. God Himself.

They nailed His hands and feet to a cross. They hung him. And he suffered beyond that which we can imagine. A sinless sacrifice to satisfy a broken law. He died there. They pierced His sides. And He was buried. I imagine I would have cried for my precious Lord. I would have weeped over His body. He was buried in a tomb on a dreary Friday. The earth moaned. The God of Nature suffered. Three days passed. And then, on the glorious Easter morning, He rose from the grave. The bands of death, at last, were broken! The atonement complete.

Christ carried my sorrows, my sins, and my pains. My anguish, my guilt. Christ is my Heavenly Friend. I cannot wait to feel the nail prints in His hands and side. I will kneel down at His feet and cry "My Lord. My God" and shed tears of gratitude and joy. Christ is real. The atonement is real. He will help us. So come what may.

In the Name of the Most High God, Jesus Christ, I testify.

Amen.

Wednesday, January 28, 2009

Remember the Covenants-3rd Nephi-2-6

There are a couple interesting things from these chapters. Obviously, the mention of the coming of one Jesus Christ, to redeem the world, is a notable one. The repentance of the Nephites is also rather notable. My favorite part, however, is the insert of Mormon.

When Mormon went through and edited the Book of Mormon, he occasionally added some of his own commentary. I like his commentary about the Covenants of Israel and how they shall, in time remember their God, who is Jesus Christ. I really like this image of Jesus Christ as the Messiah who will come in a red robe and as the God who led the Israelites out of captivity. I feel like it's a wonderful connection. God doesn't just deliver us from physical oppression, He rescues us from spiritual oppression.

I would call the Book of Mormon many things after today- the textbook of the atonement (thanks Bro. Parrish), (from now on my own inventions) The Book of the Covenants of the Lord, The Book of Repentance and Redemption, Mercy and Justice: A Case Study, The Big Book of Consequences, and The Book of Christian Living. I love the Book of Mormon now more than ever, despite it's theological quandaries that I don't understand, there's beauty in its simplicity, in its theology.

Tuesday, January 27, 2009

Faith on the Son of God Heleman 14- 3rd Nephi 1

I love Samuel's prophecy of Christ and his marvelous atonement. I love the fact that he testifies of it so eloquently and gives the sign of his birth as a new star in the sky. A light to the world. To me, that's what Christ is- a light shining in a very dark world. I live in a world where I often feel weighed down by sin and sorrow because of the things I have done. But to me these chapters give a little bit of hope for me. They teach me how, if I have faith on Christ's name, I can obtain a remission of my sins. I strive to repent in my life everyday, not because I sin on purpose, but because I a human. I am in the follies of youth still. I am trying to figure out who I am and what I will become.

It also talked about going out to baptize people. And I can so relate to that. I have an interview for my mission this week and I am so stoked. I can't wait to just tell people about my personal relationship with Jesus Christ, the Son of the Living God. That may lead to baptism or it may not, but I stand ready to testify to the world that Our Redeemer lives. He loves us and will succor us and will not leave us alone. I am grateful for His magnificient power. He saves me. He loves me. And He helps me escape from the jaws of that awful monster of sin and death.

And I am so excited to start 3rd Nephi. It's the best part of the Book of Mormon.

Monday, January 26, 2009

Samuel and Jacob- Helaman 11- 13

For my Book of Mormon class, we are required to keep a daily journal of our "supping" of the Book of Mormon for 30 minutes each and everyday. One reason that I started this blog was to force me to actually do my reading and write about it. So I have a few comments on these chapters.

The Book of Mormon is a master text on complex theological topics- the nature of the atonement of Christ, mercy and justice, the nature of God- but it also contains some seemingly simple lessons. In today's readings, I enjoyed the continual discussion of remembering God and shunning pride. Nephi preaches this and Samuel does too. They both proclaim that these people are not being true to their commitments to God as they set their hearts upon "slippery"- love the word choice-riches and look down upon their fellow men.

I love Samuel's testimony to the people. I love that story, in general though. What Mormon child doesn't aspire to be like Samuel? I think Samuel stands, along with Jacob of the Book of Jacob, as one of my favorite witnesses of Jesus Christ. These prophets tell people hard things but really try to do so for concern for the welfare of the souls. They seek for people to come to the Messiah, find true peace and comfort, in a loving and kind way. Of course there are cries of wickedness and abomination, but that's their style. I think these stories teach us how we must testify in our own way, working to bring people to the Holy One of Israel

My First Post

This is going to be my Book of Mormon/Scripture Study blog where I talk about insights and personal commentary upon the word of God.

It will be interesting to see if I keep up with this. Let's hope I can.